It seems I've all but abandoned this blog.
Yeh, I'm not exactly sure what to say. I wish I had new and exciting things to say about my life and what I've been doing since I've been back in the states but shit's the same... or at least it seems that way. Shrug.
School's school and work's work.
I guess I'll try to write more later when I actually have something to talk about.
Blerg.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
but who does the piping of heaven...?
So this week has been pretty action packed. I can't even believe that all this shit happened within the time span of one week.. it's been pretty unbelievable.
September 28, 2008
I saw Beach House at the Swedish American Music Hall with the lovely Sienna and her boyfriend Jason. It was neat because there were rows of chairs.. and Beach House is really a show that you want to sit down for. So somehow I managed to find seats three rows down from the stage and oh boy oh boy, the show was great. It was funny because the stage set up was so simple.. like something you'd find in a high school auditorium except even smaller... but this show really exceeded my expectations and I had pretty high expectations for them considering I love both of their albums. Victoria was just beautiful and so charming.. I was definitely in a dream like state the entire time.
September 30, 2008
This was the night of My Bloody Valentine. We got there and tried to wait in what we thought was a small line... there was actually just this random break in the line and as we looked further down the street we noticed that holy shit, this line was huge. It was funny because one of the security guys said, "You guys have to get in line and wait.. there are all these people in front of you...." and then he bursts out "YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN CARE" in a voice that is usually only used to exclaim crazy things like "why don't you love me anymore??" or "I'm going to kill myself"... what the hell? That sounded so out of place and awkward.. shit dude, we didn't mean to hurt your feelings. We ended up following this trail of people that were winding around the block... the line ended up not taking very long and as we get into the SF Design Center(the first time for us all), we were just astounded by how huge this place was. It was just like a giant warehouse where there are massive vampire raves(you know, like in Blade where the human gets mauled by all these crazy hip vampires). Wow, this show was packed. We managed to find a spot near the right of the stage and I was standing behind a guy who looked like a lesser Dwight Schrute. Can you imagine that? A LESSER DWIGHT SCHRUTE. Really.... How funny looking do you have to be...? Anyway, this show was so unreal... the setting, the lights, the sound... all of it combined was just really amazing. I mean shit, these guys hadn't done anything for over a decade and they were coming out with something to prove. The lesser Dwight Schrute and his equally weird looking friend actually left with a 1/3 of the show remaining... the guy next to me and I locked eyes as he exclaimed, "SCORE!!"... yeh, we had a moment. Not like that though... as his boyfriend came up and gave him a congratulatory back rub. So now I had a clear unobstructed view of this awesome set-up... geez louise. For their conclusion, they ended up playing "You Made me Realise".... fuck, this is where I wish I was equipped with all sorts of music terminology... but they took the last 10 seconds of the song and pretty much extended it to about 15-20 minutes... the best way to describe it is by using a title of an Arcade Fire song... it was like a fucking "ocean of noise" .... I don't even know.. but it pretty much blew my mind.
Here's a video of them playing "Soon" at the venue I was at... the lights are sure to give you a seizure. Enjoy.
October 3, 2008
This day will be the day that I remember as my favorite show EVER. I saw fucking Sigur Ros which is easily one of the top five shows I wanted to see in my life... and I was filled with nervous anticipation all day. We actually were super fortunate enough to find street parking but the spot was a little tight so I got out of the car to help my friend Anthony parallel park. As I'm getting out and helping him, this car drives by and this girl rolls down the window and with all the venom she could muster, she yells out "YOUUUUU BIIIIITTTTCCCHHHH" I'm dumbfounded at this point as to why she was filled with so much hatred towards me... I look in the car and Anthony has his mouth wide open in shock.. also confused by what the hell just happened.. And then at once we both just started laughing because the situation was so ludicrous haha... ok but real quick, it's important to note that this was an outdoor venue......... and...
Anyway, the show was just a mind fuck explosion. I was on the brink of tears the entire time because everything was just so beautiful. I can't even believe a voice like Jonsi's exists. For their encore performance, they did song #8 on the ( ) album which is my favorite song.. they were building up at the song and at the fucking crescendo, I kid you not, it started raining. They had these crazy white lights in the background that highlighted the outline of the rain as they were just going to fucking town on the stage. How insane is that? It was as if their music dictated the weather. It was honestly one of the most amazing and beautiful things I have ever been fortunate enough to witness. It was funny because people around me were like, "Oh.. it's raining....." and I was just thinking "No.... god is fucking crying..." Sigur Ros were just like these ethereal beings too beautiful for this world. And this Taoist notion of the piping of heaven came to mind... and the question is, who or what does the piping of heaven? Well, after this night... I've decided that it's Sigur Ros that does the fucking piping of heaven. I mean, after the show I was just reduced to this blissful puddle-like state where all words were inadequate. The show was just so beyond anything I could say... so instead of saying, I just squealed and mumbled incoherently....
What an epic night.
So here are some videos that I found from our show..... but even still, the quality of the videos are not good enough to show the true depth and beauty of their performances.
Check out Jonsi singing into his guitar...
September 28, 2008
I saw Beach House at the Swedish American Music Hall with the lovely Sienna and her boyfriend Jason. It was neat because there were rows of chairs.. and Beach House is really a show that you want to sit down for. So somehow I managed to find seats three rows down from the stage and oh boy oh boy, the show was great. It was funny because the stage set up was so simple.. like something you'd find in a high school auditorium except even smaller... but this show really exceeded my expectations and I had pretty high expectations for them considering I love both of their albums. Victoria was just beautiful and so charming.. I was definitely in a dream like state the entire time.
September 30, 2008
This was the night of My Bloody Valentine. We got there and tried to wait in what we thought was a small line... there was actually just this random break in the line and as we looked further down the street we noticed that holy shit, this line was huge. It was funny because one of the security guys said, "You guys have to get in line and wait.. there are all these people in front of you...." and then he bursts out "YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN CARE" in a voice that is usually only used to exclaim crazy things like "why don't you love me anymore??" or "I'm going to kill myself"... what the hell? That sounded so out of place and awkward.. shit dude, we didn't mean to hurt your feelings. We ended up following this trail of people that were winding around the block... the line ended up not taking very long and as we get into the SF Design Center(the first time for us all), we were just astounded by how huge this place was. It was just like a giant warehouse where there are massive vampire raves(you know, like in Blade where the human gets mauled by all these crazy hip vampires). Wow, this show was packed. We managed to find a spot near the right of the stage and I was standing behind a guy who looked like a lesser Dwight Schrute. Can you imagine that? A LESSER DWIGHT SCHRUTE. Really.... How funny looking do you have to be...? Anyway, this show was so unreal... the setting, the lights, the sound... all of it combined was just really amazing. I mean shit, these guys hadn't done anything for over a decade and they were coming out with something to prove. The lesser Dwight Schrute and his equally weird looking friend actually left with a 1/3 of the show remaining... the guy next to me and I locked eyes as he exclaimed, "SCORE!!"... yeh, we had a moment. Not like that though... as his boyfriend came up and gave him a congratulatory back rub. So now I had a clear unobstructed view of this awesome set-up... geez louise. For their conclusion, they ended up playing "You Made me Realise".... fuck, this is where I wish I was equipped with all sorts of music terminology... but they took the last 10 seconds of the song and pretty much extended it to about 15-20 minutes... the best way to describe it is by using a title of an Arcade Fire song... it was like a fucking "ocean of noise" .... I don't even know.. but it pretty much blew my mind.
Here's a video of them playing "Soon" at the venue I was at... the lights are sure to give you a seizure. Enjoy.
October 3, 2008
This day will be the day that I remember as my favorite show EVER. I saw fucking Sigur Ros which is easily one of the top five shows I wanted to see in my life... and I was filled with nervous anticipation all day. We actually were super fortunate enough to find street parking but the spot was a little tight so I got out of the car to help my friend Anthony parallel park. As I'm getting out and helping him, this car drives by and this girl rolls down the window and with all the venom she could muster, she yells out "YOUUUUU BIIIIITTTTCCCHHHH" I'm dumbfounded at this point as to why she was filled with so much hatred towards me... I look in the car and Anthony has his mouth wide open in shock.. also confused by what the hell just happened.. And then at once we both just started laughing because the situation was so ludicrous haha... ok but real quick, it's important to note that this was an outdoor venue......... and...
Anyway, the show was just a mind fuck explosion. I was on the brink of tears the entire time because everything was just so beautiful. I can't even believe a voice like Jonsi's exists. For their encore performance, they did song #8 on the ( ) album which is my favorite song.. they were building up at the song and at the fucking crescendo, I kid you not, it started raining. They had these crazy white lights in the background that highlighted the outline of the rain as they were just going to fucking town on the stage. How insane is that? It was as if their music dictated the weather. It was honestly one of the most amazing and beautiful things I have ever been fortunate enough to witness. It was funny because people around me were like, "Oh.. it's raining....." and I was just thinking "No.... god is fucking crying..." Sigur Ros were just like these ethereal beings too beautiful for this world. And this Taoist notion of the piping of heaven came to mind... and the question is, who or what does the piping of heaven? Well, after this night... I've decided that it's Sigur Ros that does the fucking piping of heaven. I mean, after the show I was just reduced to this blissful puddle-like state where all words were inadequate. The show was just so beyond anything I could say... so instead of saying, I just squealed and mumbled incoherently....
What an epic night.
So here are some videos that I found from our show..... but even still, the quality of the videos are not good enough to show the true depth and beauty of their performances.
Check out Jonsi singing into his guitar...
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Shit, but I'm also wondering about the necessity of this blog. I started my other blog in order to keep my family and friends updated on what I was doing in Korea... so maybe I could say that I'm creating this blog to keep my friends in Korea updated on what I'm doing in Amurrrica...? Or am I just being self indulgent?
Whatever. This entry's going to be scattered as fffuck which is reflective of my life right now.. scattered here and there and everywhere and nowhere... all at the same time. Shit's crazy. So here are a few short updates...
-The little hobo is off the streets.. and has been for about a month now. I moved in with 3 boys and I really love it so far... I definitely miss living with Rachelle and Ryne near LUCCAS<3 but this has been a good change of pace. I'm still adapting so we'll see how it goes. One good thing about living with 3 boys is that they have VIDEO GAMES!!....!!!!! I've been addicted to this game Geometry Wars which is insane....
-James visited me from the 11th to the 21st.. I had a really amazing time with him being here.. it was just so nice, SO nice that our friendship in Korea wasn't just a fluke.. here in my real life context, we still could hang out and have a shit ton of fun even just sitting around watching gratuitous hip hop music videos. We didn't even have to play the game of "soo... what have you been doing... (awkward silence)." We just jumped right into the swing of things and I can't even begin to explain how reassuring that was. This just solidified my belief that he is definitely one of my best friends... that all of you guys really are my best friends. Is that too cornball?
And ugh, there are just so many carbon copies floating through the city and everything's been sort of been there, done that except times a bajillion so it's annoying as fuck. I don't understand why it's so difficult to find people who are into truly bettering themselves, rather than pimping out the images of themselves
This is actually a picture of an older version of this game but seriously, this shit is ridiculous. My play count has probably reached about 100 trillion bajillion times. Look how crazy the game looks.. the goal is to just blow shit up and not die while racking up as many points as possible... it's super simple yet they added all these crazy colors to make your eyes want to pop out of their sockets. It's also set to this weird trance music so this entire combination sends you into a super psychadelic trip.... so while my roommates are playing their games with complex story lines and/or amazing graphics.. I'm sitting here like a simpleton playing a game that looks like a bastard child from the brite-lite 80s.... Fucking awesome.
-Recently I printed about 70 pictures. I took them mostly from my collection but borrowed a few from you guys as well. I plastered them all over my wall somewhat haphazardly but I'm pretty satisfied with the result. Now I can lay in bed staring at your faces for hours on end... days even.... it's a beautiful thing... super creepster, right?
-James visited me from the 11th to the 21st.. I had a really amazing time with him being here.. it was just so nice, SO nice that our friendship in Korea wasn't just a fluke.. here in my real life context, we still could hang out and have a shit ton of fun even just sitting around watching gratuitous hip hop music videos. We didn't even have to play the game of "soo... what have you been doing... (awkward silence)." We just jumped right into the swing of things and I can't even begin to explain how reassuring that was. This just solidified my belief that he is definitely one of my best friends... that all of you guys really are my best friends. Is that too cornball?
But I guess it's kind of throwing me for a loop because our interactions were so simple and so effortless.. and now I've had to re-enter the world of awkward and panicked first conversations and have been strapped with the painful task of "getting to know you".. that's a general you, by the way.. it's been a pretty freaking stark contrast. So I've had a considerable amount of anxiety knowing that I have to make new friends if I want to make myself a better life here... god it's my 3rd time coming back here after a long hiatus and it never gets any easier. After a year abroad creating these insanely amazing friendships, I'm trying to remember back to the point where it was all first impressions that were off the mark... you know, the usual song and dance. I'm just sick of having to push through the bullshit that's always involved in forging new relationships.. Fuck the trappings of it all, you know?
But what can I do? I'm sick of this life of half-assed kind of sort of sometimes friendships... especially after I know what it's like to have ones that are true blue. I'm sick of people thinking of me as a concept and I'm trying to return the favor by not doing the same thing. But I guess that'll always be hard...
And ugh, there are just so many carbon copies floating through the city and everything's been sort of been there, done that except times a bajillion so it's annoying as fuck. I don't understand why it's so difficult to find people who are into truly bettering themselves, rather than pimping out the images of themselves
I'm just trying to find people in this city that want to stay above it all and not fall through the cracks... I'm sick of complacency(word supplied by James) and settling and just being fucking BORED. That isn't living.. that's just fucking getting by.
So now I'm trying to ensure that I take everything I've learned from you guys, from myself from that surreal year abroad and apply it to here. How else will I know whether or not I've changed?
Too heavy? Maybe...
It's just that this time around, I don't want it to be about seeking validation in all the wrong places anymore. I'm seriously getting way too old for that shit. Truly.
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